Happy_Being_Here

Incredibly Lucky

2012-01-17T18:19:00.000-08:00

How did I get so incredibly lucky?
I found myself where I am today because I follow the voices in my head:
The dreams in my vision.
Predict with precision.
I have a double mission,
Because the world of now is bi-division.
Bring the 2 to the whole, instead of collapsing in.

The mind is of higher order than you think:
It may just be an infinite regression feeding a consciousness that desires to consume all of the wasted mind matter, while setting the impeccable warriors for truth free to spread the story of itself - the transcendental object at the end of time. Alas, I digress...regress...and assess, to digest.

Fly Me Away

2012-01-03T11:37:00.000-08:00

How can you just sit there.
Nothing appears out of thin air.
Why is the air so thin up here.
I'd rather be dirt down there.
For fear of never finishing something.
I can operate, but am diminished returning.
Taking out carbon loans, dating back to the beginning.

I now rely on email to keep me sane, connected.

Solitary confinement.

Manic Depressive?

Dominate

2011-12-27T14:17:00.000-08:00

What is it to dominate the self ?
What is there to be controlled ?
The awareness behind the eyes, the constant feeling - of feeling.
Which one of us is that interesting enough to follow and attract the attention of billions?

God was always inside:
the mind, the plant, the ether, and all space/time in between each of these.
And for the past few millennium we are still seeking OUR seed.
The seed is the conscious mind, and all the choices the proceed.

Now, without relying on experience and observation that collapses our mental states
We can empower ourselves to elevate to planes we actually create
The body is just an instrument, that can sing heavenly praise
And such a majestic muse it actually makes.

GodDog

2011-12-25T16:45:00.000-08:00

I'm not sure why this has come to mind, but the way I am has got to change
Two lanes is strain for this brain to maintain
We don't like to stay the same
We don't even like the same things
So why are we even trying?

Shaman I Am

2011-12-16T12:26:00.000-08:00

As a Shaman I am,
Speaking the world into existence.
Truth, therefore, is given through diction.
Which is why, sometimes, it is strange than fiction.
Conflicting experiences.

Wizards with words.
Those who abuse them,
find ways to oppress through verbs, &
Curb your enthusiasm.
No need to read life like it's captioned.
Instead,
Action manifested with a benevolent collective intelligence
is requested.

"A shaman is one who has attained a vision of the beginnings and the endings of all things and who can communicate that vision." - Terence McKenna; Food of the Gods

Rap

2011-12-03T16:01:00.001-08:00

It's a rap

Blacks in power, but still no Black Power

Even with facts, we lack truth to act

Media is not Absolute, more like Alphabet Soup

Analyze each spoon full critically

Why don't we have a real history, where are we at?

The little big picture knowledge we have is

Barely keeping reality intact

It's time to back up

This time trying to redefine Black.

Black is a mash of colors...

Day To Come

2011-12-01T09:09:00.001-08:00

If chocolate is therapeutic,

Then bodies were made for making music.

We bond on elemental levels like fusion.

Who's in control?

I don't know,

But I like how it feels tho.

You fill me full of feelings in measures so unbelievable.

We repeat.

And -

Repeat.

You are my truth, I speak no deceit.

Listen -

There go our bodies again.

Shuffling in between infinite sheets.

Advance

2011-11-23T13:16:00.001-08:00

Passion in-flames and engulfs its subjects. Like a drug you never gotten enough of yet. It seems to rain when it matters most and is needed, drowning out all that is wrong with the world for that moment to create new meanings. Is it a wonderful thing that thought is a reaction to disharmony. What lens is in focus with the heart beats? Can we not see and feel in tandem? Because everything around us is about to fall into shambles.

There is no way to prepare for a crisis except following a little bit of advice from the "Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy" - don't panic. Whatever you do, DON'T PANIC. I hear buzzing in my ears, like someone is trying to tell me a little secret. I see and feel the pain passed down generation to generation by those that are the color of this land. Red and brown, red and brown. Are we all the same underneath, when those who are under never get over?

Peace is found when you pick up pieces. Let us not make our hole so deep that there won't be anyone left to look for that peace of the puzzle.

2011-10-30T13:01:00.000-07:00

We are all Zombies. Minds locked into the key of 3

Everything

As luck would have it, 3 is the magic

Number-thing

It always has me wondering

What thing am I

What is supremely natural?

Mysteriously Mystical

It seems to be a music thing...

Grid Grind

2011-10-23T09:51:00.000-07:00

So quick to believe and not know the seed.
Obeying totally, without righteous reality.
So check it & if that doesn't get you where you need.
Then take a left at the next light, at light speed.
Because taking in a lung full of burned leaves,
Won't always help you to breath.

2011-10-20T13:40:00.000-07:00

Picture us married?

Pictures are worth a thousands words.

Talk is cheap.

That's why I hardly speak.

Open

2011-10-19T11:56:00.000-07:00

Telling reality like it is.

Today is the same as any other, and inexorably leads linearly to the next. I look into a computer screen for most of the day now. When I look at things and beings that exist in the "real" world, sometimes they/we appear just as flat - but what I feel is shared in common in between it all is the hidden dimensions each have access to. It seems that I have forgotten most of what I knew, or that that knowledge no longer applies anymore and I must create a new wisdom. But, is anything new under the Sun? Is that why fiction is so popular? Because of creative conjecture?

There is no thesis to these statements. Just a jaded search for respect. Looking to reconnect with the part of the self sacrificed in the name of unity. In order to stay focused on this goal, don't ask too many questions. The lessons learned and the tribulations triumphed is the experience necessary to increase understanding. What else is there to talk about. We find so many ways to say nothing. So be comfortable in your nudity of not knowing.

Happy

2011-10-16T22:17:00.000-07:00

What more do I need when I've got the truth, and I've got you to tell it to me. It's telling how you spell things - since I insist that you write it down instead of yelling. I read reality better between the lines, blown across the page catching grains of the sands of time.

We get to chose when things are real, and I want to pay attention to how I feel, instead of the surreal. So do whatever to your hearts content. Your heart beats first, then your gut fills fast. I make moves to make love, and ain't nothing wrong with that.

I'm feeling Jazzy!

No More Free Passes for Our Government

2011-10-11T22:54:00.000-07:00

Hip-Hop Artist Immortal Technique: No More Free Passes for Our Government

Courage

2011-10-11T15:25:00.000-07:00

Full Moon wandering around in the heavens affects all. Last night into this morning I feel as if I went through a huge shift in consciousness that is starting to become a bit difficult to believe. I really didn't sleep all that well, I felt like I was talking to someone telepathically, I had a few interesting dreams...the main one consisting of watching the sun circle the sky above us...neither rising nor setting...just circling. Also, the ground beneath my feet was traveling under me so that if I stood still - I would be taken or carried in a specific direction. I have recently learned that I am one guarded, shelled, hidden individual. Behind the wall that I have erected, I have told myself that it is insurmountable. One metaphor that I recently heard is that - from fear of the unknown - I would rather not climb a mountain that is right in front of me, even though my partner/companion has already climbed to the summit and is waiting for me...leaving both of us alone. This frightens me. I am embodying my fears and not overcoming them, or at least expecting divine intervention. I'm allowing them to make such deep root within me that I no longer see them as a weed to rid myself of.History has become Herstory, and not in a gender specific way. I, being a male, no longer want to be...male. But, I must have courage to at least be myself. Because looking back on my life, I just took a quick peek, I have been a cowardly lion.

"A coward is incapable of exhibiting love; it is the prerogative of the brave." Mohandas Gandhi

Decolonizing Hearts and Minds

2011-05-05T21:08:00.000-07:00

A vision of a beautiful planetoid, blue as the color our hearts truly bleed.
On it a seed of consciousness has become a virus, inviting in all kinds of destruction, domination, drugged despair.
Life isn't fair, but it used to be.
When we were stewards of our local communities. Now we're a global pandemic, creators of crises.
We mistook ourselves to be descended Gods, when all odds point to a transcended ape.
Reduced to binary functions of good and evil, we forgot the will and testament of the first peoples.
To be one with all. (Not one in all)
The meaning of life is death - set in the soil to recycle into new life.

There is not identifying with, sides to be taken, or wars to be fought.
What is needed now is a decolonization of thought.
The heart beats harder to find more oxygen, so take a deep breath, then blow the lights out and try enlightenment from within again.

Storify Everything

2011-04-21T10:38:00.000-07:00

How Will You Resonate?

2011-04-12T09:48:00.000-07:00

Life is a beautiful lie
That may sound pessimistic,
But it isn't
Why not quantary truth
To the contrary,
These chem/contrails are proof
That someone with power is lying to you
Trying to blind you with proof
And produce pudding
Who do you think your fooling?

Youth is an illusion alluding to creativity
To make yourself, multiply by infinity

DARK ENERGY TECHNOLOGY - Theory and science of the Rainbow Bridge

Are we born not knowing, are we born knowing all?

2011-02-07T08:43:00.000-08:00

Freedumb of Information

2011-01-21T16:50:00.000-08:00

A fear of freedom locked in to it's approach thus far
Fear of responsibility, action, simplicity in all.

Minded manners are the quietest killers.
Pillowed floggings of being,
Systematized thought is artificial intelligence,
A way to not see things...
As they are.

As you were soldier,
Sold the soil for your soul you did.
Just because your older,
Doesn't mean you've matured, kid.

Since I sense a senselessness in this dimension
Entropic and Chaotic
There must be a balance,
To break this hypnotic -
Stance.

Peace in pieces

2010-12-07T16:56:00.000-08:00

With all these wiki leak releases

Our hypothetical government contradicts it’s thesis

Will we make a statement?

I rest my case in Peace and pieces

We gamble our freedoms in political slot machines,

Hoping our vote has meaning.

When did asses and elephants begin to symbolize our core values

Or these ethical how to’s we call the daily news?

The collective unconsciousness we call the web

Has become a place for us to display how much garbage our waking mind does dredge

Are we alive or are we dead?

Life is action

The soul is not indestructible

Prone to corruption, it is

Each is his own witness

Shift perspectives to the collective and you will see a deeper way of being,

A conclusion of inclusion

Huey P.

2010-12-06T18:38:00.000-08:00

"All genuine knowledge originates in direct experience" Huey P. Newton

Huey P. I barely knew thee,
But you're growing on me, actually growing in me
All that word jazz about "All power to the people"
What you say to me is that we're all equal - need no leader,
We are the ones we've been waiting for
Don't fight against, wade away from the shore, of time
Don't loose your mind or rely on mine instead of yours
Begin by thinking
All love to all beings, and then love some more

Reaching a Clearing

2010-12-06T11:53:00.000-08:00

Surfing, surfacing, searching

Mind is matter

Truth is power

Reality is fiction

Born to break tradition and twist up lay patterns

Enter me energy, I attract

Too often though my eyes face forward and I look back

My vision is at times hindsight,

Sometimes making me feel blind like

Paralyzed

Movement - what am I doing?

Life has hold of my fears

And I just wait for one day to be far away from here

A place where the noble are must be hidden by the veil

Metaphors for commitment, but still lost in the wilderness

Time has become my foe

A friend that I had always found solace in when I was

Solitarily confined

Voluntarily holed in my soul

I've reached depths unknown and dug through the bottom to find myself a reflection of my journey

Direct Line

2010-10-11T02:17:00.000-07:00

Cloudy, as I release my energy into my hand
A strain of cancerous cells gaining access to the land
All along were we beings a part of some master plan?
Or an accident, anomaly, a metaphysical experimentation?
No need for an objective observer,
Every third eye see's the truth, the other two commit murder
Always looking for contradiction, which is suicide
Break into that prison of definition to break out more free...life
Lived in one dimension is reflected into higher planes infinitely

Stand Still

2010-09-28T16:47:00.000-07:00

My mind has so many ways of manipulating information that it boggles itself.
What to trust in and what to feel?
Everything!
How do I let my fear fall away here?
Stand still.

My suspicious tides recede, can't let them feed cause they'll consume all to quickly.
Circles comes full to naught, with understanding.
Don't let this anxiety turn you inside out.
Let it go, let it float far away and sink.
Be well and heal thyself with time,
Be ever present and drink life's fine wine,
Expressing yourself in every second,
Painting A Portrait of an Artist as this Young Man

All the Way

2010-09-25T09:44:00.000-07:00

I dissolve all the way,
Letting worries fall where they may,
On my knees as I look up into your face,
I have faith that we'll be on that beach on day.

Right Relation

2010-09-21T16:45:00.000-07:00

"You have been telling people that this is the eleventh hour.
Now you must go back and tell people that this is the hour!
And there are things to be considered:
Where are you living?
What are you doing?
What are your relationships?
Are you in right relation?
Where is your garden?
Know your Garden.
It is time to speak your truth.
Create your community.
Be good to yourself.
And not look outside of yourself for a leader.
This could be a good time!
There is a river flowing very fast.
It is so great and fast that there are those who will be afraid.
They will hold on to the shore.
They will feel that they are being torn apart, and they will suffer greatly.
Know that the river has its destination.
The elders say that we must let go of the shore,
push off into the middle of the river,
keep our eyes open,
and our heads above the water.
See who is in there with you and celebrate.
At this time we are to take nothing personally,
least of all, ourselves.
For the moment that we do,
our spiritual growth comes to a halt.
The time of the lone wolf is over.
Gather yourselves!
Banish the word struggle from your attitude and your vocabulary.
All that we do now must be done in a sacred manner and in celebration.
We are the ones that we have been waiting for."
- The Elders, Oraibi, Arizona Hopi Nation
http://lawoftime.org/home.html

Worded Jazz

2010-09-20T17:29:00.000-07:00

I connect words to images like cursive,
Freedom is at the end of my pen.

The veil has been lifted and freedom is gifted.
A vision of myself has been presented...stick with it.

My dreams introduce me to different aspects of myself.
There I find a wealth of knowledge.

Protect my seed, my soul is not to be sucked up and spat out.

Stand taller land crawler!

Learn his and herstory and trust family.

Use your power in the service of others.

Close your heart to no one.

A being becoming you, uncompromised.

Everybody. Every body.

2010-09-17T08:38:00.001-07:00

Everybody needs every body,
Everybody sees every body,
Everybody is every body,
Everybody lives every body,
Everybody supports every body,
Everybody loves every body,
Everybody is in touch with every body,
Everybody is connected with every body,
Everybody respects every body,
Everybody effects every body,
Everybody moves every body,
Everybody uses every body,
Everybody remembers every body,
Everybody is at the center of every body.
Everybody is not no body,
Every body everybody.

Dear Mankind

2010-08-26T07:17:00.000-07:00

Dear Mankind,

I would like to share some valuable thoughts with you all. Food for Though you might call it. To digest it in any way, shape or form you wish, as you have done since time immemorial. Into your advantage or disadvntage. The result of which will show themselves as they have.......since time immemorial ! Often called Karma also.....since time immemorial. I will paint a picture for you, using words to paint the reality in which you find yourselves today, with as few strokes of the verbal brush I can find with as many colours I can mix.

Amazing, isn't it, to read the endless articles we are bombarded with today ? The complaints about the behaviour of a certain, small group of criminals who have managed to overrule and overrun all of you, seemingly in no time at all.

By the time any of you noticed that you have been done in and outsmarted, the rage welled up and the screaming ensued. Then the words poured out, the reactions mailed to any who would listen and pay attention.

Only to discover that you all were a bit behind the times and belatedly catching up unto the facts. And the pain. And the rage ! Ah yes, how wonderful to notice the pain and rage spewing forth. Like a angry Volcano. The facts of the misdeeds causing your hearts to quake like a painful Earthquake. The tears flowing like a drowning Tsunami.

How fascinating to note that it is not Mankind following Nature but that Nature is following Man ! May I add that it is my fervent wish that these emotions will shift your inner "continental plates" into the rightful positions in order for all of you to fall into your rightful position in this, your Universe. So you retain your orbits, in full swing and centerred, around Life without being hit by the impacts of the Negative debris from those rogue meteorites in your Space ! Because dear people, what you see, feel and get, you begat and begot !

You are now privy to the Mirror Images of your own daily life. Of your own Being, at this moment, as a Collective Consciousness. The scales dipping into the Negative for now. All being temporary, your fate is in your hands and you can, and will, tip the scales into your favour at last....albeit belatedly and painfully.This is the system which you yourselves created.

You are now viewing a small group of people, names are not necessary, who are in control of life on your earth. They have invaded your lives, stolen your properties and absconded with your monies. You now find yourselves concentrated in what is also called a Concentration Camp. Which means you have been cornered into a corner. Surrounded and imprisoned by the acts of the Ruling Controllers. How eerily similar to life in ......Gaza ! Yes, dear people, you now find yourselves cornered into your own Gaza. Gazaed !

It shows still, in general terms of action, until the noose is tightened which will make you rebel at last. How to act, is the usually next question, in order counteract.
Mirror this image if you feel so inclined.

You are being lied to.
You are being cheated.
You are suffering broken promises.
You are being plundered.
Your heart is being broken.
You are being enslaved.
Name it and all the negatives are slapping you in the face !

BECAUSE ???

Somewhere, the image in the mirror shows you, you have lied. You know to whom.
Sometimes you cheated. You know where and see the faces looking back at you in this mirror.
There are many promises you made and never fulfilled. Beginning to yourself and carried out to others.
You plundered some peoples lives with broken promises, having cheated and then lied plus stolen something from them at times.

The broken hearts you caused along the way are many fold.
You enslaved your mind and caused others to be enslaved to the dictates of your mind, enslaved with numerous misconceptions.

You accused others of what you are guilty of yourselves !

The prevailing Universal system, as it stands, only accepts positive and rejects negative. Using the mathematics of the Creative Intelligence itself and Karma being the enforcer of the equations.
Seeing yourself, in the quietude of self examination, using your memory as a guideline, you can see unfailingly, how your own individual thoughts and consequent deeds, have been the image being reflected back at you, in this time frame., by this small goup of people As a collective sum total.

It is not that "God" chose a certain, small group of discidents...but that this group chose itself and became, advertently and by choice, the reflection of all of Mankind. Just as each government is the mirror image of it's own citizens. You voted for your own likenesses !!!

As a collective consciousness

Now comes the cry, in this wilderness, by the many, who are the few, who will loudly proclaim that they were the honest ones, the decent ones and the good ones and the giving ones and the etceteras !

But put on a scale of justice, what caused the scale to tip, outweighing the positive with the negative ? Any one of you ever tried to weigh in ??? How many of which side outweighed the other ? Can you count the numbers ? Dare you look into that, forever present, mirror ? Without blushing and clear eyes ?

It was told by some entities of higher frequencies, years ago, that some questioned how come this fellow, Joshua ben Joseph by name, chose the particular area to appear in where he did. The answer was not as expected. They, the Evolved Ones, stated that this man, very bravely, volunteered to be in that region because it was the area where civilisation had DIED ! It never having been the cradle of civilisation whatsoever !!! That territory was the epitome of lies, lust, thievery and cruelty in any form. So he tried to talk reason and truth there, while there. It is not that he failed, it is that They failed ! And are still failing. So now Man is staring into the face of disasters by having copycatted the failures !

To explain: Man is a Kind.

Male is a Gender.

Fe-male is Fetus-male...Fe-male. Or Womb-man, Wo-man is a Gender.

NOW is the time to copycat the successes. By first admitting, in the silence of one's own inner being, all of the before mentioned acts of negativity. Or, if Courage prevails, do what A.A asks of it members. To write, or speak, to all persons maligned by you as an individual, by first admitting to the misdemeanors and followed by asking if you can be forgiven by making up for these trespasses. Forgiveness is nothing more, nothing less, then NOT Ever repeating the negative, in essence ! Good luck !

Clear the decks folks ! Clean the conscious ! Clear your minds ! Only then can you succeed in overwhelming this minority who controls you now ! You are controlling yourselves, in essence ! So turn the table...and control yourselves...with the power of the positive !!! With Total Positive Action !!!
Be the Honest one, be the Giving one. The more you give, the more you get...Universal Law of Return in Like. Tit for Tat. An eye for an eye. Make it come Your way for heavens and your sake ! Want money? Give it out first, with discernment to the deserving.

Want a faithful, giving, healing, intensely loving and passionate relationship ? Be it first and then get it all in return !

Want a peaceful life ? Be it and dole it out first !

In short...write down all of your hearts desires and then LIVE it, BE it. Automatic return guaranteed !!!
Want nothing but miracles in your life ? BE the Miracle and then collect !!!

To America first and foremost. You are the one who thought it thought it was THE Country in the world of riches and powers. Where are they ? Could it be it never was there to begin with and it was all an illusion? We, in Europe, never believed this fairytale of yours. We only heard it as bragging and boasting.

You allowed to be mind controlled because this was your collective weakness. So you were indoctrinated starting in Kindergarten. "Garden for Children" and the harvest is obvious. You have been had...and they are harvesting the results. You believed that you were The Most Generous people in the world.

Not even checking what other countries have and are giving. The Most Wealthiest Country on Earth is now the poorest...because it was poor at heart and living for self and money first. Now it is gone.
Read the Communist Manifesto line by line and count how many of the acts have been accomplished. To conquer America without firing a bullet is to conquer the world ! And so they did, this small, little group of marauders and pirates. Unfortunately, having thought to be The Example to the world of Supremacy on all levels, this misnomer is now the example to the world how NOT to Be !

The glowing Image in the Mirror reflecting back !!!

We can actually be grateful for America, to show the rest of the world how Not to fall into the same trap. The Rabbit hole of Alice in Wonderland. Of Mankind in Wonderland and that little leap through that fickle mirror !

Bottom line. Mankind, be-have, be and have, what you want to have. The wheel of Karma grinds slowly but surely and destroys everything in it's path !!! Get out of the Way, your way and become The Way, the co-creative principal. You CAN and WILL, eventually, create whatever you will and want. Why make it SO painful for yourselves in the meantime ? To make this time so mean !?

This fellow, already 2000 years ago, said: In Truth there is no pain. Who cares what his name was.

"What is in a name" another said.

Want to make a name for yourselves even so ? Be Truth !

Truth IS and needs No defense.

Another truth. What is the bottom line of all of these "Bibles" floating around this planet ?
DO UNTO OTHERS AS YOU WISH OTHERS TO DO UNTO YOU !

Kindness and Compassion. But Mankind wanted an explanation in the hopes someone would come up with an excuse to circumvent these direct acts of Being.

BE Kindness and Compassion. And above that, unending LOVE for all of life great and small.
How easy it is. How simple it is. Unfortunately this has bored Mankind from the beginning and thus invented all the acts it is being hit with, smack dab back in the face !

Be kind...be compassionate...not if and when, but NOW. Say NO, be NO, do NO...in the face of your mirror images and BE...

unrestrained and unending KINDness.

Be unrestrained and unending Compassion !

IN THE FACE OF THE POSITIVE COLLECTIVE CONSCIOUSNESS THE NEGATIVE CANNOT EXIST.

AND YOU WILL HAVE DESTROYED ALL YOUR ADVERSARIES, SLAIN ALL YOUR ENEMIES AND STOPPED THEM RIGHT IN THEIR TRACKS. RENDERED THEM POWERLESS AND THEY WILL DISSOLVE INTO THE NOTHINGNESS WHENCE THEY CAME !!!
THEREIN LIES YOUR POWER !!! GRAB IT ! BE IT !!!

From an anonymous, caring friend across the ocean.

PS. A little fun addinum. That fellow, 2000 years ago ? He was born in what is now S-Syria. He was Aramaic and spoke that, his birth language. He was born of Essenes. People of Essence. Essenes were simply metaphysicians. He never belonged to any religious group. He was meant to be neutral and unattached and was. A great teacher can only be that !

~Anon~

The Camino & Planetary Changes
http://www.thecamino.com.ar/ehome.html

Be Good

2010-08-12T12:26:00.000-07:00

We live with a sun that is life. We are attached in the core of our beings to a source currently understood in 3 dimensions and partially in a 4th.

Looking for god, our God has always been as close as the nearest star and as far as the sea of time.

Now each has an eye, the seed of creation, the seat of inspiration a witness of generations - it's purpose...to propose one.

All entity's are chosen, given a divine order in the form of an explosion.

Come into being, and be good.

Apt1

2010-08-05T15:54:00.001-07:00

Apt1
Originally uploaded by thirstypixels

They way all walls should be created upon.

~by Emily Henochowicz aka thirstypixels

Bike Route to Work

2010-07-09T09:16:00.000-07:00

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16.0 mi ~ 1hr (I think)
As often as possible! Starting 7/12/2010 [woot! I finally did it Saturday July 17th 2010 :D]

So, I haven't biked to work again yet (kinda scary on busier roads) but I have a new route I'm going to try. A little bit longer and maybe it'll be easy enough to do so I can make it daily if the whether agrees?

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18mi

It's All So Carefully Scripted

2010-07-06T21:51:00.000-07:00

Our relations, not well maintenanced,
A cadence in all sense, artificially latent.
Help, solutions, conditioned to be human,
WHOIS are we?
Recursive cancer our desires are,
Our safety an illusion after all?

Galactic Butterfly

2010-05-09T18:03:00.000-07:00

This

symbol is called

the Galactic Butterfly

which is said to represent all of

the consciousness that has ever existed

in this galaxy. This is all of our physical ancestors

both human, animal, reptile, fish, shell fish, plants as well

as the consciousness which organized all of the raw material from

a whirling disk into stars then planets and solar systems. Big Meaning. So

big that the original Maya had no symbol for this. In their civilization it was like

having no name for God. Just knowing the concept was good enough. Later this pattern

was devised by Toltec or Zapatec weavers as a pattern for blankets and this is where Jose Arguelles

came across it. He called it Hunab Ku. The indigenous peoples call it "The Galactic Butterfly". Butterflies are

seen as ancestors returning for a visit to physicality. Wearing one of these symbols is very powerful as it broadcasts your reaching to actively join the consciousness of our galaxy.

Ian Xel Lungold

Evolution of Consciousness

2010-05-08T14:47:00.001-07:00

Part 1

Part 2

Watched this a few years ago. Felt like pulling it back out.

New Place New Space New Ways

2010-05-03T09:50:00.000-07:00

Still unpacking but the energy here is already so attractive.

Currently Reading: Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee - The Bond With the Beloved

2010-04-23T19:52:00.000-07:00

Llewellyn Vaughan-Lee - The Bond With the Beloved

Change For The Better

2010-04-18T15:10:00.000-07:00

I can't help but wonder, what I would be if I weren't me
If I changed to be a different being
Making good on what I am now is what I need
It's not the direction I'm looking, but what I perceive.

Everything in life is better when I'm doing something,
So this doing nothing has got to end
It has to, or that is the end...
Of everything.

So if I change something and do something then I am something.

Got it.

Good.

One

2010-04-11T14:06:00.000-07:00

"There is one universal intelligence in all and through everything seen or unseen. We call this intelligence Spirit or Mind or God, because it is the animating principle of all life. The ancients taught that this intelligence formed all things, was in all things, but that in itself it was more than the things it formed. This intelligence, even while it produced the universe, remained more than the universe because it was not only the created things but the thing creating-and the creation."

~Julia Seton

Enter Faces

2010-04-05T10:13:00.000-07:00

Read fluently in body languages, it's easier to grab a better explanation in context.

The slowest way to approach is moving on to the next one without taking the first step.

We all feed off energy, we all are energy, so when we arrive somewhere we enter equally.

Abstractions is the easiest way to make a point non moot, but truth is simple even though it takes forever to derive it from the everydayness of things. We are in ourselves peace seeking beings that are bored easily - and there is nothing wrong with that.

Truth Trees

2010-03-04T07:39:00.000-08:00

Truth Trees don't like Lumber Jacks.

The most valuable part of these trees are the leaves, the fruits and whatever may fall from it's branches into our waiting hands.

(Feels good to be writing again)

Memories archived too deep in my mind to access.

Time traveling is this close, but it's all in my head;

sometimes it needs a good shake to clean up the cobwebs where disgusting things gather.

To bad it's not one's brain that shampoo lathers.

Popping Bubbles

2009-12-13T12:48:00.000-08:00

This may best be understood in context
But these soapy spheroids burping from my chest
Contains emotional conjecture I amalgamate
From wait, wait don't tell me
Seeking resolution, but allowing no one to help me.
I listen, but don't tell me what I already think I know.
So show me instead, blow my mind without messing with my head.
I know what I just said, but what I meant to do was not contradict.
Don't filter or muzzle trust and love
In the end your defense is as thin as the film of a bubble.

Authentic

2009-11-27T17:49:00.000-08:00

Delirious from the quickened pace of the Earth's spin

Changes, revelations coming by each day's end

Let the wind shift and vent shaking creation to it's roots

Shake 'em loose of the way things have been and push up something new

Something hope full and colorful, all kinds of wonderful

Infinite networks tie the universe together

A shift here causes a shift there, why not for the better

Help, with a belief in self

Drawing up love from bottomless soul wells

Reasons are as infinite as possibilities

Finding the relation is the answer, just weave and be happy

I QUIT

2009-11-17T16:35:00.000-08:00

LOL

SMILEY FACE

Get Things Done

2009-11-15T08:54:00.000-08:00

FML. Seriously.

Motivation...comes and goes. Procrastination seems to be here to stay. Is it my mind telling me something. I doubt it's the human condition to not want to succeed and try hard, but with some things I just don't know. I devour information and learn from experience, what need have I for textbooks and assignments. Going on 20 years of schooling, quite ridiculous.

I'm bad with emotions, enough said...

Tidal

2009-11-06T08:45:00.000-08:00

A wave of some feeling to later be described as motivation has hit me in its first tidal expansion. Instantly I’m washed out to the middle of an ocean of possibilities and find a small island of hope. Making my way to this place I find that I can only circle this piece of earth brave enough to stick it’s head above the water to see what the air is like. The water trembles (can water tremble?) the surface is disturbed and another feeling hits me; one that is less filling than before. Before I can even lay my legs on shore, the land mass has decided to retreat once more until a clearer sky has risen; and I rise once again on the crest of tidal waves being thrown from one hope to the next.

2 Months

2009-11-05T15:25:00.000-08:00

And I haven't much to say right now.

That is sad?

<--This guy obviously is questioning his mental health!

L.A.

2009-08-14T17:43:00.000-07:00

Keep a heart full of emotions and a mind full of compassionate thoughts.

It's easy. Open up and let things flow through your soul.

Living without love is a thought that parallels accepting an empty void as reality.

I love everything.

Love All

L.A.

Siblings

2009-08-01T15:16:00.001-07:00

Full CIrcle

2009-07-26T14:53:00.001-07:00

I have returned, fallen from my dreams.

To this place, where void touches void.

I see a face, that I long to clutch that shimmers in the distance.

I loose my grip on the banister of hope.

As I fall, I imagine the hand that belongs to the face to reach out for me.

I reach back, hoping this isn't an illusion.

Our hands are nearly joined...and suddenly...

[This will be complete when those hands meet or when these hand fall to my sides in defeat.]

Head in Hands

2009-07-25T21:36:00.000-07:00

I'm asking, fuck that...I'm begging and yelling
Stop, I don't want tomorrow. I just end up filling it up with a bunch of yesterdays or future tomorrows.

I need a hand.
A second hand.

I need a voice, a phone call

Could I wake up then, I don't know.

But this trend, this meme is that I need to practice. Or, I need a practice?
Can't have both, can I?

I wish I understood...when I lie.

I mislead, and am misled by my tragic comedy of a reality.

I'm no good at myself

2009-07-20T21:22:00.000-07:00

Sounds negative right. Depends on your interpretation and my intention;
I keep advancing.

Words define meanings, but what defines definition?
Continue dancing.

You catch me in the act of fainting, means I found something beautiful;
An unconscious trance-ing[transcending].
Pure perception.

Begin Moving

2009-07-18T12:33:00.000-07:00

Truth is stranger than fiction
Is a stranger to diction
Something is missing

My emotions encrypted by 32-bits
I can barely move shit's
Without thinking about It

I've never met meaning
I've yet to embrace love
My lips are sealed around words that won't obey gravity and fall from my mind or float up from my consciousness...

Listen for the simple reason given
Truth is stranger than fiction
Is a stranger to diction
Something is missing

Bono-freakin-bo

2009-07-12T22:44:00.001-07:00

Good peoples

2009-06-29T19:21:00.001-07:00

Good peoples

2009-06-29T09:54:00.001-07:00

Not about me!

2009-06-08T18:54:00.000-07:00

This blog will be no longer about me...I must use it to map the progression of compassion, love, and happiness everyone including myself has the capacity to experience. Without further ado...

With Love.

Art

2009-05-30T17:12:00.000-07:00

I'm trying to experience each day as if all of existence was held within it.

Chapter 1

2009-05-04T18:31:00.000-07:00

It never begins at the same point. My thoughts are probably creating themselves, I am just the force behind it. So where am I going. Nowhere, I follow. With no intention of ever getting to this there so many people look for.

Now, I'm just sitting here about to move because I feel compelled to adjust a little. I have music playing at me, something I consider contemporarily funky. Occasionally my attention is grabbed by virtual movement wish is captured, flatly, by our current form of tele-communication, an ever present connection that is im-personal yet personalized.

So why, have I stopped concentrating on you? Yes, I'm addressing the you who reads my thoughts manifested through 26 symbols that when randomly arranged and re-arrange produce ideas and encourage experience. I have merely adjusted to your presence.

You can find me whenever you want. But, I - only see you - when I choose to...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hDvaU-GyIYE

To blog...

2009-04-28T16:41:00.000-07:00

What am I looking for when I sit down and attempt to craft an interesting post. I usually just let it flow freely, but this means I don't post very often.

Could it be my environment that is not worthy of sharing, or am I to afraid to publish my point of view. If I could constantly condense my opinions and stray thoughts into a coherent mess, then I would have something.

Right now, I don't write...I Twitter. No, this is not a declaration of I Twit therefore I am...although many who do, are twits. I merely mean to try and unravel the layers of reasoning that cloud my judgment and hinder my action.

So, let us hope that there will be something I will become very passionate about soon. I need something to share.

To blog...you need motivation. Or a vociferous soul.

What is amazing

2009-04-20T22:00:00.000-07:00

I do...I will...be infinite

My Latest, My Greatest

2009-04-08T12:36:00.001-07:00

My latest Roosevelt University Library blog post. Also, a version of this was presented at RUMCOT 6 (Roosevelt University Mini-Conference On Teaching). I presented on Blogs, Wikis, Twitter, Facebook in libraries and education in general.

You can read it here.

Collective Unconsciousness

2009-04-06T16:56:00.000-07:00

It will be apparent soon, but twitter is just one iteration of this growing desire for our collective unconsciousness to make itself heard. We all should have the ability to tap into each others knowledge and growth from experience. The following video features Evan Williams, co-founder of twitter, and he does a great job at explaining how technology is manifesting our want of communication and information sharing.

Social Media and Education

2009-03-24T20:37:00.000-07:00

This niche is just beginning to be invested in. The community would learn better as a whole with tools to facilitate discussion. Social media inside the class room is not always a distraction, not if put to good use. Education should begin to focus on information and digital literacy, teaching students how to learn more using the tools they already cannot seem live without. Faculty should not have a monopoly on curriculum in the same way Microsoft should not have a monopoly on software. Open up and connect...

Blackboards or Backchannels The Techno Induced Classroom of Tomorrow

Chris Pirillo: The Power of Social Media

Life is Lame

2009-03-21T21:53:00.000-07:00

That video really got me thinking about 'life online' and all this social networking bullshit and it's purpose. Everyone, including me, get so carried away with our virtual appearance as much as we are conscious of our physical appearance. Some people primarily use these services to create a new them, a new identity that they agree with and is more easy to manipulate.

But, these social networking/connecting/sharing services are really only tools. They are not useless...but they are being used for useless things. I personally walk the line of productiveness and sharing relevant information, to contributing to the inane content. So there is no real hating or loving it, just don't waste your time...that's the worst part of all this. Integrate social media into your life instead of leading two separate lives; one online - one offline. Let the internet become your backup brain, where you can keep memories and tap into a collective cognition.

Are We There Yet?

2009-03-15T19:01:00.000-07:00

I have come to an incredible impasse. I have creative and extroverted actions I need to take.
But, I am confined by academic walls. What am I to do?

I really need to start doing what I want, but does that come after I get my latest degree. I feel like I should leave now and gain more, than wait and waste time. In all reality I just wish I was self employed in some way. But, things are always accomplished one way or another. I realize one of the major skills that have evolved within us is patience...

But on to my new favorite tune I can't get out of my head.

Later I will post the playlist to my awesome mixtape....after all my tramps recieve a copy. Can't spoil the awsomeness.

Update: Here it is

Librarian    4:18    My Morning Jacket    Evil Urges

Invincible    4:50    Muse    Black Holes And Revelations

The Prayer    3:47    Bloc Party    A Weekend In The City

I Will Possess Your Heart    8:26    Death Cab For Cutie    Narrow Stairs

Breathe Me    4:35    Sia    Colour The Small One

Sari    3:27    Nellie McKay    Get Away From Me

Your Lips Are Red    4:42    St. Vincent    Marry Me

Heimdalsgate Like A Promethean Curse    3:19    Of Montreal    Hissing Fauna, Are You The Destroyer?

Boys Wanna Be Her    3:54    Peaches    Impeach My Bush

My Girls    5:41    Animal Collective    Merriweather Post Pavilion

Couleurs    8:35    M83    Saturdays = Youth

Wildcat    4:20    Ratatat    Classics

Nightlite (feat. Bajka)    5:10    Bonobo    Days To Come

Sunday Morning    3:47    K-OS    Atlantis

No Regrets    4:31    Aesop Rock    Labor Days

So This Is Goodbye    5:18    Junior Boys    So This Is Goodbye

The Universe is calling...It's for you

2009-02-26T18:38:00.000-08:00

Dive In

2009-02-22T16:42:00.000-08:00

With the world falling to pieces around you, what are you supposed to do?
Dive into the chasm with enthusiasm. Don't ignore what's in front of you or sit on the past Potsy!
You've got you and I've got me, birth is the first dream and from there you fall deeper asleep.
Don't attempt insomnia, that's suicide. Do or die...

Don't get caught up star gazing, start by Walking on A Dream to enter the Empire of the Sun!

This is what I do all day!

2009-02-12T15:42:00.001-08:00

Taking Classes Online

2009-02-12T15:12:00.000-08:00

Don't.

Unless you want to be driven crazy by the ethereal nature of what is expected of you.

On that note I'll show you many of the things that occupy my attention during class.

Appreciation

2009-02-06T20:20:00.001-08:00

I know I'm lucky to have what I have now. Things can always be much worse, but its worth being in good spirits when the world seems wrong. I need to share more, we need to be more transparent. I think its obvious our identity and consciousness will become more ubiquitous.

What is death.

2009-01-24T18:13:00.000-08:00

Is life worth living if so many of us are dying.

What is the difference between life and death.

Some rush towards one and away from the other.

Life could be just another word for death...

What happens

2009-01-10T19:49:00.000-08:00

Things happen.

Randomly syncing together to shortly follow logical or temporal principles. How much fear must be generated until, truth and transparency is the only medicine left.

We passed the future on our way to destroying our selves.

More responsible for your actions each day...I feel as if I need a mental stimulus

A spiritual pick me up?

Time Warp Breakdancing!

2008-11-24T17:10:00.000-08:00

m83 Kim & Jessie

2008-11-16T10:16:00.000-08:00

gotta love the choreography

You know, what I know

2008-11-01T09:55:00.000-07:00

You know that pain in your temple will never go away, although it's not really pain you feel...it's your awareness of an imbalance between the potential you have of not feeling and feeling something deeply. You could always ignore the "pain," but it never goes away does it?

Now, expand that train of thought across a lifetime, an epoch, the whole of existence. Life is purely the potential to feel something, to be aware of who, what, and where you are. I began to enjoy my life a few years after being born. That's when what I began to feel and know it meant something.

Nowadays I feel too much? I argue with reality to often. I believe I know where things could go, but I think I should follow the instances created in each moment. Time is here and now, a sea we are constantly sailing through. When you are is what matters, more than where you are I believe. I think it becomes more and more evident that this is true with words, images, and emotion traveling all over the world instantaneously effecting a few to many without much effort.

A 3-minute story of mixed emoticons

2008-11-01T09:44:00.000-07:00

It's Been a Minute

2008-10-28T16:08:00.001-07:00

I'm enjoying the present at present. I think the world conscious axis is riding clean finally. People know what they are doing and why they are doing it. My words are not so deep anymore. Maybe because I'm thinking less about things and thinking forward.

How it should be

2008-09-11T17:52:00.001-07:00

Make the best of most of it

2008-08-31T08:29:00.000-07:00

On the other hand one must live liberally and choose a life full of itself
A shelf-full of experience awaits those willing to reach high enough
Ingredients rich and ripe and with the right combination can cure-all ills
Hearts heal and minds determined to deal and express real will
Will know what it is to be here, and make the best of most of it

Diminished

2008-08-31T08:19:00.000-07:00

A blasted black hole of dark matter and energy
This is what constitutes me...

A tail chasing lunatic who has forgotten what the world looks like
It just spins, with no consequence
This is what you are...

As much as one is able to experience,
There are things one wont experience
For example, happiness.
The thing that as soon as you desire....starts to decay.
There is no irony in a reality of universal random relativity.

I want you everywhere

2008-08-30T20:47:00.000-07:00

A place that is.
But, too few remember to even think about it.
So it depends on when you want to get there, if it will be there.
A haven for thought and delinquent feelings;
No one needs control here.
One day It will understand, enough to grasp the meaning of its existence
And the it will choose to destroy itself and its benefactors,
Or heaven really isn't such a mystical place.
But, for now life isn't real enough,

Why is everyone so afraid of Google?

2008-08-28T14:57:00.001-07:00

I think they currently do a pretty good job at not being evil. I can't say that I expect that to last indefinitely though. But, hopefully the way people perceive our problems and how we are able to solve them will keep strengthening, I don't see many company's doing much harm to the Web.

I do wish I had more of a hand into things though...I'm gathering a good background now and its never to late.

Our information personal or public will inevitably be open. I sort of see it in the same sense I think of the Universe. It's full of information and this information flows freely from one end to the other. We are creating a digital universe and must allow it to flourish and take form.

A new me?

2008-08-11T07:36:00.000-07:00

I had a dream I was reinstated with consciousness through revisiting the beginning of the Universe. Something tells me that the ability of the LHC will provide cool consequences. It'll understand, the internet is already 1HB. :)

Knowledge

2008-08-07T05:52:00.000-07:00

I've thought about...read about...done without and craved.......
I've laid it out...walk on it paved with doubt...devoured, leaving with corner stained mouth...
And still can't comprehend...un-twist or un-bend, mentally, to understand where it comes from
A cacophony of conundrums.

This ability permits pride in a species, rightly so
Even if it causes a flux in fights between faux foes

TED Video: Kevin Kelly: Predicting the next 5,000 days of the web

2008-08-01T07:45:00.000-07:00

This sucks!

2008-07-26T19:45:00.000-07:00

After spending a little more than a week and in 1 class for my masters program, I feel like I've been in a glorious intellectual bubble which has slowly deflated and now I'm back on the ground....crawling.

But that's not to say that the experience was not an awesome experience, in fact it was incredibly motivating. It felt good and I learned a great deal. I hope my grade is where I want it to be, but I wont be disappointing with what I get.

I must make sure I keep up with empowering feeling that I have pulled from this experience. My professional life is ahead of me now.

The Word

2008-07-09T11:43:00.000-07:00

Nothing has made itself more of a staple of our humanness than the written word. It simultaneously holds our whole of understanding, creativity, and experience.

And yet compared to the ideas and forms our words try and represent they are empty shells, almost meaningless...almost.

But, this almost is what seems to matter to us most. We are 'happy' with the almost; it'll do for now. I can at times see and realize the sources of these traces, these silhouettes, these shadows of being. But, immediately they mean nothing. As quickly as I grasp reality, I misplace it. I do wish it would find me, but then that would be so frightening I'm not sure how I would handle it, poorly I bet.

There are a lucky few who have been found by reality and were able to recognize it right away. Even fewer if any have held onto reality. So revel in your suffering and inability to deal with the way things are.

Cause if you understood, you wouldn't be here. By coming here you have punished yourself because you wanted to feel something. Whether this be a noble or ignoble virtue can never be agreed upon, and it should not be.

Hypnotized

2008-07-08T22:11:00.000-07:00

We are all falling deeper asleep
We know that death, the afterlife, the end of 'our' time is upon us
Allow yourself to either understand or misunderstand this.

How do you wake a sleeping world?
A civilization so distracted that it day dreams itself into economic and ecological stupor

We must not save ourselves, we must betray our selfish ego
And plant and replant firmly into the earth we have sinned so much against
And hope it forgives us, and forgets us
And creates a whole new life form

One that is responsible

What Every American Should Know About the FISA Bill

2008-07-07T09:26:00.000-07:00

What Every American Needs to Know (and Do) About FISA Before Tuesday, July 8th from Tim Ferriss on Vimeo.

Where am I at?

2008-07-01T23:28:00.000-07:00

I need to start writing my life's story, or answering my own questions.
To be determined.....

I know

2008-06-30T17:08:00.000-07:00

Something will happen. Can't hope for much more than that. I am confident that the outcome will be favorable. Can't get to anxious because it does helps in no way. I can only be prepared and relieved after IT happens.

Such a drag

2008-06-20T22:10:00.000-07:00

I feel like sucking on the butt of a cigarette actually. Pretty much fed up with being fed up, or bored with being bored. I do things just to do things, but doing anything any more is such a drag.
There no energy, no creativity, no challenge, questionable purpose.
Am I over looking, underestimating, not appreciating the present.
Why isn't life being more nascent instead of complacent.
Huh?

Can't Wait

2008-06-14T21:16:00.001-07:00

But I have to. I want this suffering to be over. I wish I understood what the earth was trying to tell us. Or what Nature had in mind, letting us get so powerful, yet remain so ignorant. This year sucks, in a word...but it is opening our minds and eyes to real suffering that has been taking place for a long time.

We have so much consciousness now and we do nothing but waste it on manufactured entertainment. A lot of us are waking up, but power needs to be redistributed. We need to listen to the earth, and the living beings that inhabit it. Every once in a while I fear the immediate future, and I know many people have larger fears than I do. This fear should not belong to the majority of the population, which it does.

We need to redistribute the wealth of our compassion and intelligence in a reverse fraction to those in the small percentage who benefit financially from the worlds population and give almost nothing back. We give you billions and you rob us of billions more. Don't give me your money, give me my money back.

Present in the present

2008-06-11T20:59:00.000-07:00

I don't know how to feel about this. I am conscious of where I am, but I am not where I am. I don't pay enough attention to the present moment..the now. I do constantly consider the future and sometimes reflect of the past. Right now I'm not trying to be happy or much of anything. But, I see things and think about what they mean and try to decide what to do from there. It's is all very confusing. I wish I had a better or easier understanding of how to navigate life. The knowledge or wisdom I have right now is not enough. But, I feel like I'm following a good path, just hope its worth it.

We need all those who believe, they balance our humanity

2008-06-10T20:36:00.000-07:00

I really liked this one. Watched it three times so far...and my eyes are opened wider and wider. Mind expanded a bit more each time.

Forming the Future

2008-06-08T10:03:00.000-07:00

Stay focused on a particular time line. Space-time is limitless and can be perceived from any perspective one being will chose. I just need to make sure I'm listening to my being, and know that I want to Be Here. I think that if I learn that I can constantly pass from the Inside to the Outside, then back Inside agian...like any breath...I will feel better about my position in this position on this planet at this time.

WTF MATE

2008-06-06T13:56:00.000-07:00

I wish I knew what the hell these were for and why are they so freaking huge?

On...and on

2008-06-04T21:00:00.000-07:00

Again, not much accomplished as promised,
Begin to be more open and honest. I don't mean to be so solitude driven and sorta secretive. I just know my space and stay in it. I don't reach much beyond the borders of my bubble. But, I have the friends, family and partner I need to be a greater creator.

Wow a lot of introspection goes on in this dear docile mind of mine. So what...